Ponder

I’m here all alone,

With nothing to cheer for and everything to fear.

I sit back pondering about what I could have done,

But not thinking about what can be done.

There’s no one but me to blame,

I’m so stubborn, I’m so naïve.

Caught between dreams and reality,

I sit back, but am squirming in anxiety.

So much to do but so little time,

Dozens of people there are to please.

Amazed by my own inefficiency,

I wonder how so many expectations are there of me.

I like to do nothing but ponder, but

I realize now that is a time for choice.

A choice of leading life your own way,

Or, life leading you in its ownway.

And all I’ll do now is ponder……